here they are again
2002-03-14 / 2:30 p.m.

It's funny, well not really funny, but I'm stuck in my office waitiing for Booger to get here. Her pappa is bringing her. See I'm stuck because I'm having panic attacks and can't leave the room. I've got tons of stuff to do out on the floor but... I can't.

I should call my doctor to see what I can do about it. Up the Prozac? Is Prozac good for panic attacks? Should I try something new? Will I have to go thru several drugs before I eventually find the right one? How long will it take before I get back to normal? Shit. This hasn't happened in a long while. I know what it is. I've felt it coming on but there wasn't anything I could do. Oh yeah...maybe make an appointment with my doctor?

It's the stress over GS that's doing it.

I was in a store yesterday and had to stop for a second because I thought I was going to fall. This is no way to live.

So I wait for Booger to show up. She'll walk with me down the wide open halls. She'll hold my hand because she's understanding that way. At only 8 years old, she comforts her mommy when needed. I feel like such an idiot.